your satellite, your singing satellite

your satellite,
you're half a world away..

well dear, how do you do today? did you live your live well?
I'm counting down for today ,, just the small moment like this
the breeze of night ,, and all the moment is stopped
you stealing inch by inch of my life

can we endure it? luckily enough to survive
well, i don't think so, but who knows the end of stories?
you've already stealing my own life
all the hours in God's send
makes me stand in agony, winding down the windows
my future is a valentine, stolen in a perfect crime
but in a blazing smile, raise a question
you're half a world a away
but i my mind i whispered every single word you say
and before you save the night
you pray to me, your  singing satellite

(insipired by: satellite/ stealing time by A&B)

a scattered dream, a new defining point

oh God, what time is it now? what kind of date??
yeah, time is surprisngly passed.. day bay day, months and a year ..
I know  those kind of days will be passed, my wretched day in those wicked time is actually gone by now.
and well,, suddenly I cant sleep, I cant think  and I think I just feel that something trapped me has recluctanly gone : those routine activities

it kill me yes, actually I'm not  mind with my daily routine as a post graduate student, but the peers is disgusting.
Ah well i don't want to talk about it anymore because no use of it,..
after a few nights I cant do anything I realize on this mid night that I found my self again in here, outside the routine activities, the targets etc.. who am I, what I dreamt for and fight for, and the ultimate is : describing my fear..
yes fear, this feeling is occupied me for several days, leaving my mind a new phase of me.
I know the bad thing was end, and this is just about me, how does my way to walk on it, to face it wee
those two people , in a tiniest amount is my resemblances.. i realized what is the result , no matter what, the key point is Process . I have to enjoyed it, be friend with my fear because no live can be surpassed without facing problem, including let new people joining our life again. no matter what they intended to me, the point is I have to settle my self first. without it there's no relationship will be better. yes, I', quite traumatized by previous part of my live..

I dunno, what will happen to me next day, my future,, my fate my dream,, it seems they scattered in vague , standing in midst... but this tiny time in this middle of night give me a point that it's time to get up again dear. your world, your future is waiting for you and I hope it's enough as a remember that whatever problem which come to you, belief that it shape and construct you know. more or less :  that is life

some priceless moments

#Sekarang ,, jogja hujan rintik,, malam,, pukul 10
backsound: lagu "Dua Sejoli" - Dewa 19
            
harusnya nugas sh buat outlen thesis dan semacamnya
but somehow, typing some scattered thought in my mind push me to write it down :)

aku merasa momen paling useless, dan tak berguna ada mada sekitaran mid Mei  hingga awal Agustus
Pengangguran baru, masih di lingkungan lama : malang, kampus dan semuanya
bapak ingin aku asdos, sekolah lagi dan dosen,,
sementara aku: yah still naggling defining my own dream and wonder that my curiosity and idealism is enough
being a reporter, civil servants, and many alternative , but one thought that : i never dreamt to study again, continued my master degree

 -- like now--

suasana psikologis ku juga hampa, antara meyakini diri untuk segera keluar dari realitas dan bersikap kuat , seperti biasa nya, dan persaan hampa tentang diriku sendiri
But, somehow God have His own plan which never expected by anyone
His destiny encountered me to two persons that at least help me deepening my mind and soul

the first person is the young lad, 2 years younger than me
bright eyes, friendly smile which by his presence
he gave me some spirit that live is never be so dull, monochromatic,
yes those 2 years really really shaped me, it happen when you really really in love with someone,
gave your worlds, time, tears and actually you'll be really really wounded
 so young clad, with his own problem, brilliant thought  ad I understand that..
somehow we destined to be met, and should learn something priceless lesson about it
maybe we are in the same vacant, emptyness mind, which somehow trapped in our young age
I enjoyed watching movie with him, go sneaked at night from his mother,, it such somehow awaked my childish memories
it seems sound awkward, but it really happen to me when I'm supposed to be mature in motherly and sisterly ways for more than 2 years in society
I understand that life is too sort if only filled with regret... and maybe he find some sisterly-feeling or something like that, when his life seems too cold, lonely, and need a recognition to be seen as an early-adult personal..
do we wrong? in such circumstancess i never have a will to call it right or wrong
i understand my Allah more from his cross sign as pray when we eat together
it seems that His massage go down to me through him, that God never let His people alone
so we should always preserve our good relationship with Him regardless our condition
somehow, we understand that our feeling must be over silently, without has a chance to talk about it
Good luck for you, may Allah send his Blessed to you to fulfill your dream. The last time I saw him, I understand it must be ended as a good memories

the second, is it you?? the one meet as early as i entered college
as an odd senior, you seems never pay attention to something or someone that you think not so much need your attention
your out of the box attitude, word and character sometimes make me feel non-sense and though : what do you exactly one
being an unpredictable person is your slogan and for more than 5 years i never pay much atttention to you
and than the days come when we maybe purposely or not entwinted together
debating arguments, ideas and even some moments that I even wonder what such a person inside in here
you both critisized me and guard me, taught me in your constructive critism
to be near you mean I'm free to be my own self, nagling with my childish attitude but in the same thime creating a conversation that concluded us as : yes "we are getting mature now"
we share our vacant moment together, which is mean happens rarely
no romantic dinner just eat some snacks in street installemnt and spend our time untul 2 a.m
both understand our complex decision making about our own life, planning a just begin life, with all idealism, mixing with realities we should consider
bringing laugh and joke on heavy matters, that we both know we should face it no matter what
some coincidental moment, your gesture when leading an Isya' prayer, one by one wondering me
am I in love again? should it begin again?

and suddenly you go there, the most southern-east past of uor nation,
involving in some development project, without never have a time to discuss and why
leaving me without any news, and some your awkward attitude that lately i'm still compensate it
2 months spend, and you actually comeback give me some news about you
usual joke, sarcasm talk, happen again in my smartphone, but I understand we change to be more mature person
just a priceless Friday and Saturday, no more than 3 weeks a once,
always stay in touch with me when spare time is available
what is our fate tomorrow? would we be destined to be together?
I dunno dear, but I admit that those feeling blossom again, with every consequences should bear
i have no other option except whispering to God
ask the best path for us..
and I hope the time, in its own patch shaping us to the best part of us
who knows, we're lucky enough to spend our remaining life together?
Stay though, I hope Allah give His Blessing and peace to you
Only in God, we always trust

Relatif? kenapa tidak

aih,, di sini  bukan relativism sebagai ideologi yang kompleks dan saya belum paham,, ahahhaha
tapi di sini, mau nggak mau atau memang saking longgarnya kuliah (ceileh,, paper bro!) nggak sengaja bener ada satu topik yang menarik dan tengiang-ngiang di kepala 1-2 hari ini : Relatif

Kebetulan 1
Ada postingan dari Hipwee , postingan agak lama sih yang saya buka lagi, sekilas tentang "inside opinion" dari dunia seputar Hubungan Internasional. aih semacam rendezvouz gitu,, semacam : hey world, we're IR and thanks you've understood us!" ahahaha tentang suka duka kenyataan pahit yang kadang konyol (bittersweet gituu), cita-cita yang membumbung soal korps diplomatik dan kawan-kawan realitas paper yang mencekik,, stigma daaan akhirnya pemahaman : nggak ada yang perlu disesali jadi penstudi HI,, no matter your day now. Bukan chauvinistis jurusan sih, tapi lebih pada sebuah motivasi yang kocak :p

Kebetulan 2
Ada teman yang berkomentar pada suatu kasus yang berhubungan dengan bidang studi saya, yang intinya mengkaitkan antara janji kampanye yang meleset (belum di tepati seperti saat kampanye), dan substansi dari janji itu sendiri yaitu komitmen unutk mengakui Hamas. Jadi mas temenku ini mempertanyakan kenapa Hamas ga diakui dan kaitannya (menurut dia)  membuat Indonesia ga berperan dalam proses pengakuan kemerdekaan Palestina. Nah lho, somehow 2 peristiwa ini sepertinya terkait, buty eits I argued that actually they stand on difference position :p

Kaalo gaya di kelas tuh gini analisisisnya (sok sok an presentasi di depan Pak Muhadi) :
Hamas itu organisasi politik, semacam fraksi atau ormas, bukan institusi negara, tapi bagian dari negara. Tentu,  eksistensinya itu menimbulkan pro dan kontra , perilaku Hamas yang keras pada Israel (tanpa bermaksud membenarkan pula tindakan Israel) tidak selamanya positif lho.Sehingga munkin ini yang menjadi pertimbangan Pemerintah urung mengakui Hamas. Lagipula  konteksnya masih abu-abu ketika meninjau  sebuah keharusan bahwa negara mengakui organisasi yang secara tingkatan analisis berada dalam kedaulatan negara (Pemerintah Palestina).  Ada beberapa negara yang mengecapnya sebagai teroris. Sedangkan dalam negara Palestina sendiri selain Hamas, ada Fatah yang lebih fleksibel dalam perundingan dan diplomas dan menjadi faksi pemimpin pos-pos eksekutif negara. Hamas memang Palestina, tapi Palestina bukan cuma Hamas. ini yang saya kira belum dipahami masyarakat. dalam negara Palestina sendiri usaha pengakuan kedaulatan negaranya sudah banyak dilakukan. negara dalam konteks hukum internasional secara de facto harus memiliki  warga dan teritorial sedangkan secara de jure adalah adanya pengakuan dari negara lain (mohon maaf bila ada kesalahan intrepretasi). That's the point, Indonesia sudah berperan disitu., antara lain: pengakuan kedaulatan dalam bentuk saling tukar menukar duta/ konsul, aktif menyuarakan mediasi meskipun tidak bisa menjadi mediator Israel-Paestina. Selain dalam PBB, pada forum internasional lain seperti OKI Indonesia sudah menunjukkan posisinya bahwa keberadaan Palestina selaras dengan politik luar negeri Indonesia. Ada banyak hal yang dilakukuan RI walaupun masih belum cukup. Kalau Indonesia memutuskan untuk belum mengakui Hamas, jika dikaitkan dengan komitmen kampanye dan semangat RI mendukung kemerdekaan palestina sepertinya tidak sinkron. Dukungan kemerdekaan tidak serta merta dicerminkan dengan pengakuan eksistensi aktor sub negara. Tentunya berbeda lagi jika dikaitkan dengan janji kampanye.

** kalo dikaitin dengan kebetulan no 1 sih iya: Pemikiran kami anak HI dilatih unutk holistik dan divergen sekaligus. Nothing is pure black and white for us,, bahkan pada konflik yang bahkan telah disebutkan dalam al Quran ini. and that's why IR is not just a mere academical perspective, but somehow its reflect our persperctive in daily life. dan semakin bisa pahami cara pikir orang. temen saya anak sipil dan keahliannya bukan di ranah ini saya harus pahami pola pikirnya. ilmu terlalu luas untuk dipahami sendiri bukan. dan pada konteks tertentu yang saling berkelindan, kebenaran yang diteropong dari fakta itu relatif. so, why not to start thinking relatively when faced the daily life? :))

difference

setelah berabad abad nggak nulis blog,, hahaha,,
here i am come back,, dengn numpang wifi di perpus orang,, ceilehh
 baca tulisan terakhir geli juga,, ababil banget kesannya,, haha iya lah 2011,, 3 tahun lalu non,,,

but, that's life indeed.. sometimes you need to look back, make pece with them and started creating your future...
purity,, optimism, young and naive,,  mungkin itu beberapa kesan yang bisa terbaca dari coretan blog ku,,, and now everything seems different..  ah ya,  dulu mungkin khas romantisme kuliah strata 1, idealisme lah, eksistensi lah,, but now dude, you'll face more complex, greyish area of your mind and life,,.. dan oh sempat-sempatnya nulis blog ditengah lautan tugas paskasarjana yang ih waw..
that's my life, choice and everything,, yak ketimbang nulis di sosmed jugak (2011 belum terlalu booming sih),, malah nanti jadi mispersepsi,, males ah,,, hahaa,,

tadi iseng buka FB, ada tautan di akun teman yang lewat di timeline tentang kristenisasi dalam acara car free day di jakarta. entah, aku juga tak ada niat membukanya,, tapi dari kome
n-komen yang sempat dibuka oh rasanya seperti gabungan dari deja vu, dan perasaan terasing entang oleh apa. ada satu komentar yang berusaha menengahi yang menarik bagi saya,, teringat twitter di salah satu akun anonim yang kira-kira seperti  ini : "  islamisasi bolehlah, namun kristenisasi jangan". saya bukan liberal, juga bukan konservatif atau apa,, saya awam dan mendapat pelajaran agama layaknya anak-anak lain di sekolah negeri. namun sekarang mungkin dalam fase melihat mengkritisi dan memahami teks yang ada di realitas keseharian saya.  saya merasa seperti jika pembicaraan sepperti itu justru mengiris hati saya sebaga seorang muslim,. entah apakah misi itu salah atau saya yang salah, tapi saya yakin kita bersaudara,,, malah dengan mengenal dekat teman teman atau bahkan kerabat yang berbeda agama saya merasa seperti berdiaolg denganNya sendiri.

apakah segala klaim, penyesatan dan semuanya itu memang membela agama saya. siapakah yang sebenarnya di bela? akidah mungkin? bagi saya kok tidak seperti itu. paman, bibi, dan sepupu sepupu tiap minggu mengunjungi gereja, namun bapak dan keluarga justru ke masjid, tapi realitanya lebih dari itu. jadi bagi saya pembicaraan itu tidak saja sensitif tapi juga kontemplatif. that just my private opinion, and not intended to violent other people perspective. Tuhanku membuat agama menjadi bervariasi bukan tanpa sebab kan? :)

ya sudah ;)

aku mgkin bagi sebagian org dan (sebagian diriku sendiri) bukan organisatoris yang baik

yang terlalu khawatir, rigid atau apalah

aku menyadari aku berada di bayang-bayang

jika di organisasi

aku terlalu idealis sekaligus rapuh

sehingga terombangambing g karuan terkadang

gapapa...

pkerjaan yang aku sadar bener2 enjoi mmg g jaoh2 dari akdemik, riset, atau diskusi kecil

yang g lepas dari buku ;p

aku mencintai smua ini

aku adalah aku yang kemarin, sekarang dan nanti

namun kau tau sobat,

impianku mgkin terdengar konyol dan nonsens bagi beberapa dari kalian:

jadi ibu rumah tangga

ahahaha

setinggi apapun karirku sekarang

seluarbiasa impian q yang akan ku raih kelak

jika ditanya, aku akan ttp kembali ke peraduanku

ke anak2 ku

di rumah

aku memang tidak berkesempatan memiliki ibu yang bisa penuh mencurahkan diri ke anak-anaknya

oleh karena itu, tidak akan ku sia-siakan jika kesempatan itu datang

sekarang wktunya aku melesat

yha, aku ttap di dunia ku kok nanti

menulis itu dunia ku

mengajar, berhubungan dg orang banyak..itulah angan skaligus jalan stapak yg kujalani

bukan power, otoritas, atau pengakuan lagi yang kudambakan saat itu

bahkan skarangpun aku tak terlalu nyaman dengan 3 hal itu

dan pelan2 akan kucba menjaga jarak dengannya

serpih

lebih tapakkan kaki mu di sana , sayang

agar kamu lebih yakin dan sekaligus

mensyukuri apa yang telah dititipkanNya untuk kamu

ttep jalan. dan teruslah melangkah

kau memang bukan yang paling sempurna,

menawan, dan memikat semua orang

kau sudah paham bukan dari dulu

kau terlihat leras, dingin, tapi juga sedih'

tak apa, jika mmg itu jalanmu

kau tak kan bisa menjadi org lain

sekuat apapun keinginanmu

menjadi seperti mereka

rengkuh mimpi mu.

atau setidaknya tersenyumlah

pada harapanmu sendiri

di penghujung tahun nanti

ingatlah saat2 ini

tersenyumlah

di tengah kembang api yang terus menderu2 itu

atau di malam yang sepi

seperti sekarang ini

harapan mu untuknya?

hhmm, tak ada yang bs memprediksi

dan kau pun tak harus mewujudkannya dalam kata

karna kadang

ada sesuatu yang lebih baik terwujud lewat jalan lain

bersyukurlah,,

kau mampu merasakan ini

beribu-ribu orang di sana

yang hatinya dingin, kosong bagai rongga

tak berkesempatan mencecapnya

pandanglah ia sepuasmu

tertawalah bersamanya

ingat setiap kata-kata nya

cium udara disekitarnya yang manis

selagi kau mampu- selagi kau bisa

yoo....

aku ttp di sini og...

ttp stay di sebelahmu....

emboh gmana nti sterusnya...

mmg y sperti inilah karakterku...

mgkn qm y g paham...y ndakpapa kok... aku juga bukan berarti paham 100% sama karakterku

aku..

memang kelihatan diem, tanpa emosi...lebih tepatnya mgknin SEMACAM menyembunyikan

tapi jgn lupa aku keras orangnya...keras atau tegas...kurang tau aku yang mana...

mmg kenyataannya ak gbs marah di kamu

sebenci apapun...ak gbs marah...dan emamng aku g pingin marah :-D

mgkn sekarang kamu ngrasa ada sesuatu yang aneh...kamu ngrasa ada sesuatu , yang berasa getir mungkin

gpp...y memang getir kok...ndak bisa bohong aku,.....aku paham dan mengerti posisi kita

tapi juga g bisa selamanya...kadang2 ya memang kita harus bersikap seperti ini...sakit??...ancen

dan skrang tambah nyadar bahwa mmg qt gbsa maksa orang untuk paham

di situasi seperti ini juga terlihat kok...

wajah sebenarnya dari kita semua

g ada yang hitam absolut atau putih sempurna....

smuanya abu-abu...

dan memang seperti itulah manusia....

aku g akan menyalahkan para pengurus yang...

ndak..

cz mereka juga bukan orang yang lebih tinggi dari kita semua...

kita semua sama kondisinya...belajar

jujur aku kangen, dulu

saat2 aku ya mengenal kamu dari sisi formalmu

kamu juga kenal aku juga dari sisi formalku >,<

kerja sampek malem...ayog....g beban samasekali aku...

beban di fisik mgkin, karna capek...tapi mental nggak....

aku g perlu tau siapa kamu, g perlu tahu sikap kamu hadapi konflik ni semua

ga perlu...

dulu aku ahanya perlu kenal kamu sebagai kamu yang formal....

g tau kenapa

pas waktu itu smuanya yang ku yakini sebagai kehidupan yang "should have done"...

hilang...

aku g pernah sama lagi...

beda....tambah sakit mungkin ia...tapi jangan lupa juga tambah senyum

aku masi inget leluconmu yang garing dan mekso

banyak hal yang menyadarkan....

y wes lah ;-)

Where we are: Globalization and National’s Identity

First, i write this article for my Globalization's subject, last essay before Final Exam. Leave comment please, to increase my writing skills..thanks :)

Globalization and National’s Identity

Globalization, if we view it from social-culture’s perspective will be very interested to discuss. Because, from this perspective it will be much easier to observe and analyze the phenomenons. Social Culture’s phenomenon is obviously, everyone not only see and know it but also discuss it in daily life. Its reflect directly on what people have talked about and what kind of action which they do as a respond of it. That’s why I love and interested to stay and want to observe deeper a social phenomenon from this aspect. ble

As we know, on this end of 2010 our “trending topics” was AFF Champhionship. On the final match, Indonesia should meet her closest neighbour on this South-East Asia Regional, Malaysia. Of course this AFF’s final match has predicted to create high tension opinion among each citizen and we can found there was an opinion war among these two countries on several sites on internet. Some of them wrote about sportivity and optimism that sport can increase the two finalists relationship especially appreciated to their National Team who successed to increase it performance on previous match. But the others also talked about negative matters as a respond of how unstable was Indonesia-Malaysia’s relationship in this following years. Each countries shared the culture, national resources and even sea and ocean...we shared together. Of course these factor also playing significant role on these countries billateral relationship added by differences on social culture, economy and political condition. Public maybe focused on Indonesian Migrant Workers (Tenaga Kerja Indonesia abbreviated as TKI)’s fate who often exposed in media are treated brutally by their Malaysian master, including unjustice system who trapped them in this sircumstances; public of course still remembered on case such as Batik, Reog, Angklung, Rasa Sayange Song, etc. I do not write about the final score and some incident around it on this article. Its just out of my purpose to write about it.

This phenomenon raised question: what really happen in Indonesia and Malaysia’s relationship if we are correlate it with this global era and national identity. Both Indonesia and Malaysia found theirselves united as Melayu. Although they often involve in debatable problem such as teritority, actually they also realize it. Share the same identity can create negative impact since society in both of these countries find difficulties to identify clearly who is the real owner of their cultures. Globalization as seen as an event, no matter from where perspectives we start to view, has also shaped the dynamization of Indonesia and Malaysia’s billateral relationship. This effect has already been felt by us like: the emergence of non state actors, developing in IT’s. States no longer have so powerful authority to control their citizen activities on foreign countries. For example : nor Indonesia and Malaysia can exactly controlled their people’s activities, interaction among people now are more complex than if we compare it with the previous decade. A time when state’s border only distinguished teritorial and “physical” sovereignity. No more.

Then, where is our identity as Indonesia? Although we are united as Malay race with Malaysia, as a nation it will be still have diffenences. But, where these differences stand, and what kind of diffenences whom distinguised us from them? We has different dialects, different sub-cultures diversity. I am not intended to expose these differences on negative aim. But I wonder, a Javanese will refused if he/ she are identified as Melayu. I guess he/ she will said : ”No, thanks. I am a Javanese not Melayu.” Even that he/she realize and know that Javanese as a tribe are a part of Melayu race. Should we defend our identity as well as posible until the last of our blood, to prove it that we are different from Malaysia?

It will be better if we keep this question and try to re-define again: what is our problem with Malaysia? Are we grudging about claims that they have made for their tourism’s interest? Or, actually we find difficulties to understand our own identity and local wisdoms in this global era? Is there anyone who are able to explain simply our nation identity and its implementation on daily life, so we can easily said : o yeah, this is actually the real characteristic of my country!” Let’s go flashback to see through ourselves....this kind of identity has already taught to as (as I am a Javanese, I take this example from my own experience) from elementary school such as a thought than Indonesian are friendly people with gemah ripah loh jinawi tata tentrem kerta raharja (Java’s or nusantara which always fertile and properous)’s lands, and has andap asor (friendly attitude wich alwas put respect to each other we meet) and menang tanpa ngasorake (win a “competition” without beating our rivals)’s philosophy. Come back again...Have we already implemented all of these mores and values, from whom our ancestral leave, well? Why we seemed look have unproper attitude when we faced problem that our neighbourhood state are take out “our culture”? Where was our attention to these heritages (both tangible and intangible such as local wisdoms, mores, etc) before the other country claimed them as their own? What can we do at least to show to International Society our truly positive character when we faced a situation like this?

I try to offer this: let’s recognize again our identity from our own culture. As a nation we are blessed with wonderful cultural difersity from Aceh in West until Papua in East. All of them are our duty and right all at once to maintainance it so our children will able to enjoy it too. Knowing our culture, it does not mean that we must involved our self so deeply on there, because contribution is not only defined as being the actor. Something that missing in here is the contribution in role and initiative. At least, from know, we started to be more concern and knowing them. We can repackaging our culture depends on our favourite ways and media like animation, graphic design, poem, music, paintings etc. Let’s combine them with global unsure that we can easity get now. I was impressed by Iranian’s youth who composed a rap song which inspired from their Persian classical epos by Firdausi (National Geograpic Indonesia August 2008).

Culture is not a thing we left it, because we think that all of them are out of date and uncompatible to our modern lifestyle. If we start to re-knowing again our own culture, I belive slow but sure we will find important yet priceless messages and reflection about what is IndonesiaI. We can learn from them, for example Angklung and Gamelan taught us about harmonyty and the power of collectivism. So do Mahabarata epos, Pendet dance, process making of batik, ...they only a sample from the whole population of Indonesia diversity of cultures. Each of them contain thousand of priceless local wisdoms. Our ancestor never leave them all to us without any meaning. These norms have already passed out time, and it proven that their wisodoms are timeless. Globalization is not a barrier to us not only maintenance but also to introduce our cultures to International Society. We will never neglect todays life, but if we can take all the meaning of this. I believe it will help us when we need to show to our neighbourhood in this whole world about truly Indonesia. So we can proudly say Yes, this is Indonesia, and I proud to be part of her. I hope.

Response to Yulsi : Note based on Manjali dan Cakrabirawa (Ayu Utami, 2010)

Recently, I've been tagged in a note by my friend, Yulsi..

About a Novel by Ayu Utami. Actually I haven't read the novel yet. From this note, even just a glimpse sight of it, I know at least it told about "what's happed in this country". Ayu try to tell us about our society condition....

"Di Eropa, modernitas tidak bisa dipisahkan dari demokrasi. Di sana modernitas lahir bersama semangat demokrasi. Karena itu, modernitas datang bersama pengakuan atas hak asasi manusia. Tapi di sini? Modernitas berarti teknologi modern saja. Listrik, telepon, mobil, termasuk tank dan persenjataan militer –yang malah dipakai melanggar hak asasi manusia. Nilai-nilai yang dulu melahirkan modernitas justru tidak diadopsi. Kenapa? Karena bangsa ini cuma konsumen. Ini bangsa konsumtif, bukan bangsa produktif. Orang-orang Indonesia sekarang cuma senang mengkonsumsi hal-hal permukaan. Lihat betapa maruknya orang Indonesia membeli produk asing! Lihat bagaimana retail Prancis Carrefour merajalela dan mematikan pasar tradisional."

Even explicitly, she said that this condition is tied up tightly with our "disease" now--> Consumerism. It made us became just a follower, when we imported an ideas or a product from abroad, we don't also bring it philosophical's value. We just used it, not yet tried to find deeper about what is it (?), why we use it (?) etc... So, the impact is we loose ourselves. Local wisdom, slowly but sure disappeared. Norms, whom yesterday was held and respected by people, now became (just) a ritual. Decreasing the meaning...Guys, we had our priceless heritage... Let's dig it up.. :)

Where we stand in this Global Era???

How to correlated our position as a girl or women and its role

in Global Era?

Globalization and woman role maybe never been apart from discussion among scholar or people like us who came from social science's background. Since feminism formally came in Mary Wollstonecraft era, until in this millennium era this topic seem never ending to discuss.
Women always interesting, including on science field when it seemed dominated by man in their study. Not always frontally by create new paradigm or perspective. History proved that there are so many women who inspired this world even until now, they maybe act directly on political or governmental field, ir the others walk on their own expertise. never bring "feminism" flag directly, but they of course bring new atmosphere on their works. Virginia Woolf on her novels, as Nicole Kidman do in the Hours, Jane Austen in her Pride and Prejudice..they are outstanding writers who tried to communicate their view. they never clearly talk : "Hey, here I am, and I am a Feminist!". No, but, if we wanna to read it more their writing, they implicitly told about women in their era, their problem and how they stay through on it.

So, where we are? What can we do? Global world is identified as no more border, and more homogenized idea--> these factors sometimes make us confused. Are we able to follo Austen or Woolf's path? Sometimes we often don't know how to actualized our self.. and the worst we feel useless. So the question raised, where is our contribution??...I've no expertise yet, I mean, I'm not specialized enough in one field. So, may be I do not have specific answer for it. but the simplest way to understand it, for me start on ourselves. we must have something we enjoyed better than the others--> singing, writing, art, music, organizations, language etc...decide to explore it. Knows better, does better...if we started on a point that we enjoyed, it often easier to explore even deeper...automatically we found our existence and also contribution there. Slow but sure, we can found the ways..and I, decide to explore my writing world. Our world is waiting for us... See you :)

here is me :)

It's (just) me....
But maybe now is different than yesterday. Here is me, with every laugh, cry,etc around my time line in this years. Every priceless event has gone, gone through time.. and left me here...everything has shaped me, or I've already shaped my self. Whatever...

**Yea,,,... accepted it Phie,,... You are what you are thinking of...I think it's the simplest way to start to understand myself on this new age...20 is just a number except we reflect it with (maybe) such like this question : how to fulfill and optimize it..
-- I this yeear, it would be nice if I am:
.> improve my writing skill--> by tried to optimize my spare time, write anything, analyze anything, as long as I can. Even it just a simple event :)
.> improve my interpersonal skill--> by "understanding" people around me :)
.> improve my foreign language skill --> by followed foreign laguage course (of course language whhom I can enjoyed it better, English maybe, or Korean, Russia..hhhmm:)
.> no more, or at least reduce grudging, or create negative thought

Understand your self first Phie...after that, Insya Allah you are able to understand the other

our identity, where is it??

A question mark
always being interested part of human being. if it correlated by another question --> Identity ..., what is your opinion?

Identity, what is identity? According to Samuel Huntington on his Clash of Civilization , (frankly I'm only read a little part of it, not finished yet ;) it is one of most fundamental question maong people. Whenever the're coming from. Because of identity, people can decided a thing and determine what they wanna do. so, if I correlated it with a choice, it will be have more complex relationship. Further, identity can shape a group, people, entity, nation or any level we used to view. Identity tied with history, norm, view and human being itself...Furthermore. it make we realize our is different than them. This our vs. them's feeling is sometimes created big problem, whom even able to threatened a state's security..but if it can manage well, identity which blend together with culture can build extremely potential power. Like asset in economy, identity can be explored, improved, shaped, anything...as well as we want and able, it always possible.

Identity determine, or at least help us explain yet understanding why people or group do something. And it can be expressed toward many ways, music, poems, political views, paint or even just a symbol. So, where is our identity know? As a scholar, as a college student, as a part of society, as a part of this nation, and as a part of international society?

wanna be

wanna tell story that only a little now about it!!!
never heard about Kalevala, but be a fans of Lord of the Rings
Even JRR Tolkien really-really admired Kalevala, because these heroic poem has became the fundamental aspect of Norway's Identity. Because of Kalevala, the Norway found their own integrity... I never imagined that culture also bringing such a great impact to a nation... so what are you waiting for to love culture???

(mungkin) piLihan lain...

Tanggal 10 oktober.....
**akhirnya setelah ngantri, bisa pinjem GIE...patungan sama puspita...karena dulu ndak mudheng, sekarang apa salahnya nonton lagiiii...
Nekad..mulai nonton jam setengah sepuluh...bnar2 tidur jam setengah tiga...dan besoknya kuliah jam set8...hasilnya, waktu pagi samasekali g ada yang masuk di kuping...takpapa-takpapa

Inilah hebatnya media film. Kita bisa tahu setting cerita sedemikian personal. Jakarta yang supersibuk dan "galak" seperti bayangan generasi-generasi kita, lebih terlihat "ramah", dengan rumah-rumah padat penduduk, toko-toko lama, pedagang kaki lima yang masih berbaju tradisional...semuanya bertujuan membantu kita menvisualisasikan bagaimana sih Jakarta pada mid 60's (?).

Dari luar Gie kecil (Jonathan Mulia) sama kok dengan anak-anak seusianya, sekolah jalan kaki, nongkrong di gardu jaga, punya hewan peliharaan, dsb...tapii, jika mau lebih teliti ada yang beda, dia suka baca
Menurut sumber-sumber yang bisa diakses di Internet maupun dari buku Catatan Seorang Demonstran (CSD) Gie memnag sudah mewarisi kegemaran menulis dari orangtuanya. Ayah Gie Soe Lie Piet (Salam sutrawan) adalah redaktur berbagai media cetak pada tahun 1940, buku-bukunya pun banyak.. Di film terlihat dia membaca banyak karya sastra dalam negeri maupun luar negeri sekaliber Toltstoy maupun MArx (maaf kalau salah eja)
Jadi mikir(??) Umur Segini sudah baca apa saja ya aku?? Bacaan yang mengembangkan pola pikir...Sudah agak telat si...tapi daripada TIDAK sama sekali...Semuanya kan pilihan...Dulu jika berhadapan dengan pertanyaan: bagaimanana menggolongkan mahasiswa, jika dikaitkan dengan partisipasi politik. JAwabanku cuma DUA : Mereka yang apatis serta mereka yang kritis dan termasuk golongan para aktivis yang berkecimpung langsung di dunia politik kampus. Tapi setelah menonton Gie, dan seperti juga yang telah kubaca di CSD ada satu golongan lain yang bebas

Dan sepertinya, unuk semntara iniuntuk saya, pilihan terakhir ini yang terasa paling baik. Golongan ini memang belum atau tidak terjun di politik langsung, tapi bukan berarti apatis...Karena, kita bisa bebas berfikir dan mengungkapkan apapun, murni unutk pembelajaran diri, atau memang sudah idealisme seseorang*.... :D

* tenaaang. saya belum sampai ke tahapan idealisme, karena saya masih dan akan masih terus belajarrr

hAri-hAri yAng "siBuk"

HHha...kalau hari-hari gini di UB pasti sibuk dengan ospek atau nama kerennya PKK Maba (Pengenalan Kehidupan Kampus Mahasiswa Baru). Nha, di UB ini kan ada PKK Universitas, yang kepanitiaannya dikelola oleh EM. Cuma sehari siih...tapi whuuu masif banget pesertanya. gak tanggung-tanggung, total maba UB 2010 ini mencapai 10rb an lebih... termasuk yang mengikuti SAP (seleksi alih program). Nha, pHie ni mau bagi-bagi cerita dikit siih...dari sudut kecil PK2 MU....wleeeekkkk
Bagi aku yang seumur-umur g pernah ikud panitia yang handle banyak orang jadi bingung juga. seminar dulu yang cuma 100-an peserta aja GJ, lha ini malah ikut yang puluhan ribuan...kesan awal daftar: "NI BENERAN IKUD TAAAAA????" dan lebih anehnya lagi, entah mengapa q pilih pendamping...

meee

not kno i understand the meaning of wise
i just a young-green leaves
compare with the whole wisdom in the world
am i wrong if i stand on my own feet
the eagles (may be) fly alone

bwt pembaca, ni penuliz lagi pengen banget ngomongin cermin
menuru kalian apa tu sebenernya cermin?
apa melulu cermin kaca......
bukannya sok bijak sih, tapi gak tau kenapa cermiiiiiiiiin terus yang hari ini eksis di kepala.

menurutku, cermin itu juga dari diri kita. misal, kalo kita ikut organisasi atau appaaa gitu, udah tanya ke diri kita :beneran nih kita ikut itu dengan segala akibat atau untung ruginya. maklumlah ni kan musim 'open recruitment' organisasi atau perkumpulan. memang sih itu tergantung banget sama individunya masing-masing. tapi buat orang yang sering bingung kaya aku kembali ke 'cermin yang sesungguhnya' ini tu pilihan terbaik....... >.<

cermin itu gak harus kaca

mungkin kaca itu identik dengan cermin kali yaaa.....
tapi sebenarnya, kalo kita jeli, bahkan diri kita juga bisa jadi cermin. gimana sih sebenernya kita.